By the mid-eighties, the “New Age” movement was very big in Toronto and intertwined itself around the “Holistic” lifestyle that I had sought. I inadvertently began experimenting in the “New Age” movement.

After subsequent visits to tarot card readers, channelers, supposed crystal healing sessions with new age healers I was introduced to some pretty charismatic, evil people that had a disguise of being good, loving humans. Their mask was to talk about God and love to a great degree.

Little did I know that their “god” was the devil. I never willingly took part in satanic rituals and if I would have known their true motivation I would have severed all ties. I moved in this circle off and on for ten years (more off than on). With a sincere lack of discernment, I was led astray to a point of being severely attacked by a Satanic force that had plagued me daily for decades.

Throughout the years, the details of how this could have ever happened are extremely intensive and unbelievable to conceive. God has blessed me with two beautiful daughters. I birthed both children at home with midwives’, breastfed for 5 years between my two babies, washed cloth diapers, prepared organic baby food, but I failed them both when I began hanging out with evil ‘friends’. I was naive and ignorant and had lacked discernment to what I exposed them to.

My children were truly treasures from heaven. Unfortunately, I was severely challenged; I was mentally ill due to the never-ending demonic attacks. I was abusive with my daughters, especially my eldest daughter. My oldest daughter has not been active in my life since 2015. I preached to my children too much when they were too young to understand what I was dealing with. They both were not capable of dealing with a mother with severe mental illness coupled with demonic siege.

My daughters are spiritually hungry for Divine Wisdom. I believe from the depths of my soul that both my daughters will one day eternally rejoice with me in heaven. I have also requested prayerfully that all members of my bloodline have a deep encounters with Jesus Christ and will be saved from eternal hell.

Sadly, both my daughters have distanced themselves from me. I have asked for their forgiveness countless times. As teenagers, I told them that I was prepared to pay for Christian therapy and would be accountable for all my actions and would even accompany them into therapy sessions. They chose a different path exploring ‘worldly’ religions. I understand, I get why they choose to walk away from their Christian roots. What I grieve the most is that they dismissed Jesus as their Lord and Savior.

In all honesty I had a bold, unbendable Will and I refused to submit to the Heavenly Father’s laws and authority. In turn, Jesus could not protect me. I was over-exposed to the dark side without His protection; eventually I was so consumed and possessed by demons in my spirit, soul and body. At the time of my fall into hell, I seriously thought I was having a ‘heavenly angelic encounter’ directly from God’s throne room; but I was greatly deceived. I found myself in the depths of hell.

I refused to allow God to lead me. I didn’t allow Him into my heart because I did not trust men in my life; there were too many abusive experiences with men. As a young person, I didn’t believe in Jesus because I believed that he allowed the abuse to happen when I was so innocent and young. In short, I was unable to live out my ‘God calling’ because I rejected Jesus. In doing so, I inadvertently opened doors to a hellish existence.